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Tortured by the memory of his mother's death, he will not let himself enjoy even the simplest pleasures of his austere life - making a bow, for instance. Left on his own, John reveals the true form of his religious feeling - self-destructive rituals of purification by vomiting and whipping himself. The sudden violence, shocking as it is, has been prepared for ever since the visit to Malpais and, in some ways, echoes the flagellation ritual Lenina and Bernard witness on the Savage Reservation. The concluding chapter of the novel brings John the Savage into direct physical conflict with the brave new world he has decided to leave. Filled with despair and self-loathing, he kills himself. John awakens the next day, groggy from soma, and realizes what has happened. A riot breaks out and turns into a sexual orgy. When Lenina herself approaches him, lovesick and heartbroken, John attacks her with a whip. Reporters, film crews, and then crowds intrude on his privacy. In a lighthouse outside London, John undergoes purification for "eating civilization." Fasting, whipping himself, and vomiting, John strives to exorcise the guilt he feels for Linda's death and his horror of sexual contact with Lenina.